I've been very tense lately. Don't know why, everyday i just feel stress. I think this is all because of me pumping milk , worrying that the milk is not enough for my bb so when something interrupted and i can't pump my milk on time, i got stress up. If i wake up slightly late in the morning, i got stress up worrying that my girls might be waking up while i'm pumping. Then i have to make sure Xinru nap after taking her bottle in the morning, so that i have time to pump and cook lunch for Xinyi. Then i have to make sure both girls taking their nap at the same time at the afternoon so that i have time to pump again. During night , i have to make sure both girls sleep early so that i can pump without dragging it too long. haiiii .. why am i so worrying about pumping milk? How nice if Xinru can just nurse on breast. HOw nice if both my girls don't have any allergies issue and i can just feed her formula.
I need to relax. How can i go throught this everyday if it's always so tense. I'm not happy at all . I'm not enjoying my kids and the moment that i spend time with them. I always wonder in my mind whether what is the next pumping session.
