Eczema

I almost forgot how bad Xinyi skin used to be, until i looked at this photo again. This photo was taken when Xinyi is around 1 months plus.
I starred at this photo just now for a good 5 mins. Keep reminding myself that i shouldn't let this happen to my second daughter again. I shall if possible only feed my baby breast milk and breastfeed her as long as possible. I shall control my diet to exclude those food that might be pass through breast milk and trigger the allergies.
I remember how heartbroken i was that time. Every time i looked at other babies that have such fair and white skin, I keep wondering why my girl need to suffer this. I felt so guilty applying those steroid cream on her skin everyday.
I'm glad that at least now Xinyi allergies are under much control. We just brought her for allergies test last month and it did identified a few major allergens that trigger her allergies. We will do our best to make sure our girl live a healthy life.
Now, just wish that my girl (second one) won't suffer the same thing. Keep my finger cross.

I thought i'm ready but

I'm not. I'm not ready to pop yet. Yesterday night when i feel that my tummy get tigten inregulary i actually went into the panic mood. I'm so panic that i'm going to pop this few days and i start to hope and pray that i'm not going to pop in another week or so. I think i'm panic because i'm not ready to take care of a new born yet. Not ready to went through the sleepless night and frequent feedings of taking care of newborn. Not ready to love another human being in my life. Not ready to go through the boring confinement period. Not ready to have a stranger aka confinement lady in my house for the whole month. Not ready to let other people ( my mum or my mohter in law) to take care of xinyi during my confiment. Not ready of not being able to fetch Xinyi to and back from school. Not ready to struggle through the breastfeeding journey. I think i can go for a long list if i continue to think about this.
So hopefully i won't deliver before hari raya holiday. Let me enjoy my holiday peacefully, Please..

Thanks whoever up there that my tummy is not feeling tense anymore. So i don't think i will pop within this few days. Arigato..

I pray

I pray that i will have everything ready before the baby decided to come out to see the world. The baby room or so called confinement lady 's room will need to be rearranged. The bottles, sterlizers, pump will need to be bring out to check to make sure they are still function. The baby cot still need to be assembled. Arhhh. tons of things to do

I pray that baby will not get too big until i cannot have the normal delivery. I don't want to have the c-sec but i'm gaining too much weight this round , much more than when i had my Xinyi.

I pray that i will have a smooth breastfeeding journey this round. Last time was not a succesful one until i had no choice but to exclusively pump for Xinyi. So much extra work as i had to sterilized the pump, the bottle each time and need to feed the baby after pumping pula. Double work!!

I pray that baby will not have jaundice this time. I can't bear to leave the baby in the hospital and i had to travel more than 2 hours everday just to see the baby and bring the express milk to hospital.

I pray that that baby will no have any allergic problem just like her sister.

I pray that the baby will have good health. I pray that all my family will have a good health too..

I pray.. pray and pray......

Tummy

I asked hub to snap a photo of my 8 months pregnant tummy. As usual, Xinyi requested to look at the picture at the camera screen. When hub show her the picture, she pointed to the picture and asked " 这是谁？" , just like how we always ask her when we show her the photo of the family members. Then she answered her own question by herself " TUMMY"....
Well , at least she get the answer right..

哎哟，看!

Few days ago when i was preparing Xinyi for afternoon nap, i accidently drop her water bottle and wet the bed sheet a bit. She immediately pointed to the drops of water and said " 哎哟，看!" while showing me her unhappy look on her face. I can't help but laughing out loud because this is exactly the way i talk to her whenver she play with her bottle water and wet the bed sheet.
Kids, they immitate whatever you are doing so make sure you don't do something silly infront of them. :)

Another 5 weeks

Another 5 weeks baby will due. This time, i'm not getting anxious at all. Not even a slightly excitement. However , i i still can't wait for the baby to come out. Tummy is getting too big for me to move around. Xinyi still required alot of hugging and carrying at this stage and this has become a burden for me. I always feel short of breath after carrying for just like 1 mins.
Only today, i start to wash all my sarong that i plan to wear during the confinement. I will probably wash the baby cloths tomorrow. Just incase baby decided to come out early.
And i haven't think of any name for baby.
I really have to start think of the baby. Not just Xinyi everytime. I just don't know how i can spare time for my baby, as i just spend all my energy and mind taking care Xinyi now.
Just wonder how the mothers of more than 1 taking care of her kids?

Regarding ps again

Here I am again, a worried mum, my DD doesn't poo for 4 days straight already. I think it has become a habit for her to poo only every 3 or 4 days. And everytime she poo, it involved straining, complaining, whinning, and even crying if the poo is too hard. The process sometimes can take up for more than half an hour to 1 hour before she succesfully push the poo out. And you can imagine how stressful both of us during the process. And most of the time, she will have the urge to poo for a few times in a day before she manage to poo.
I've been very hardworking on feeding her fruits , water. But my daughter just not the type that like to eat. I have to chase her around the house to make sure she finish her fruits or drink her water. I'm seriously getting very tired to do that everyday. No matter what, she just won't eat if i didn't force it into her mouth.
I know alot of mothers out there are probably facing the same issue, and it will be the phase that will be over soon. I hope, my girl's difficultly in pooing will be over soon, and she will start to enjoy her fruits more and drink more waters by her own. Or maybe i should potty train her so that she get use to poo everyday?
I'm not sending this post to the multiply inbox. This is more like my own writing to keep track, My own way of releasing my worried.

Rant

Stupid network!! Damn slow!! Stupid Streamyx!! Don't know why i pay so much every month for something slow like turtle. Upload video also take forever, few times then only succesfull. Load a page also take few minutes. GERAM!!!!!

I'm waiting fo her to ps.

Do you consistently checking your kid's poo? tracking when he/she poo? whether the poo is hard of soft? Ya, call me the weird one. I'm one of those weird mother that's always concern about my daughter bowel movement. I start to worry when daughter skip a day without poo, counting how many days she didn't have her bowel movement, waiting everytime when she wakes up hopefully she will poo the next minutes. If there is still no sign of pooing of her, i will feel like i can't sit, can't eat , can't stand, immediately complain to my husband when he gets home that our daughter still not pooing today.
I wonder whether all mothers are the same. Or maybe i'm that super duper weird mother that's overly concerned and worried.

note: ps = pang sai (in hokkien).