Eczema

I almost forgot how bad Xinyi skin used to be, until i looked at this photo again. This photo was taken when Xinyi is around 1 months plus.
I starred at this photo just now for a good 5 mins. Keep reminding myself that i shouldn't let this happen to my second daughter again. I shall if possible only feed my baby breast milk and breastfeed her as long as possible. I shall control my diet to exclude those food that might be pass through breast milk and trigger the allergies.
I remember how heartbroken i was that time. Every time i looked at other babies that have such fair and white skin, I keep wondering why my girl need to suffer this. I felt so guilty applying those steroid cream on her skin everyday.
I'm glad that at least now Xinyi allergies are under much control. We just brought her for allergies test last month and it did identified a few major allergens that trigger her allergies. We will do our best to make sure our girl live a healthy life.
Now, just wish that my girl (second one) won't suffer the same thing. Keep my finger cross.

I thought i'm ready but

I'm not. I'm not ready to pop yet. Yesterday night when i feel that my tummy get tigten inregulary i actually went into the panic mood. I'm so panic that i'm going to pop this few days and i start to hope and pray that i'm not going to pop in another week or so. I think i'm panic because i'm not ready to take care of a new born yet. Not ready to went through the sleepless night and frequent feedings of taking care of newborn. Not ready to love another human being in my life. Not ready to go through the boring confinement period. Not ready to have a stranger aka confinement lady in my house for the whole month. Not ready to let other people ( my mum or my mohter in law) to take care of xinyi during my confiment. Not ready of not being able to fetch Xinyi to and back from school. Not ready to struggle through the breastfeeding journey. I think i can go for a long list if i continue to think about this.
So hopefully i won't deliver before hari raya holiday. Let me enjoy my holiday peacefully, Please..

Thanks whoever up there that my tummy is not feeling tense anymore. So i don't think i will pop within this few days. Arigato..

I pray

I pray that i will have everything ready before the baby decided to come out to see the world. The baby room or so called confinement lady 's room will need to be rearranged. The bottles, sterlizers, pump will need to be bring out to check to make sure they are still function. The baby cot still need to be assembled. Arhhh. tons of things to do

I pray that baby will not get too big until i cannot have the normal delivery. I don't want to have the c-sec but i'm gaining too much weight this round , much more than when i had my Xinyi.

I pray that i will have a smooth breastfeeding journey this round. Last time was not a succesful one until i had no choice but to exclusively pump for Xinyi. So much extra work as i had to sterilized the pump, the bottle each time and need to feed the baby after pumping pula. Double work!!

I pray that baby will not have jaundice this time. I can't bear to leave the baby in the hospital and i had to travel more than 2 hours everday just to see the baby and bring the express milk to hospital.

I pray that that baby will no have any allergic problem just like her sister.

I pray that the baby will have good health. I pray that all my family will have a good health too..

I pray.. pray and pray......

Tummy

I asked hub to snap a photo of my 8 months pregnant tummy. As usual, Xinyi requested to look at the picture at the camera screen. When hub show her the picture, she pointed to the picture and asked " 这是谁？" , just like how we always ask her when we show her the photo of the family members. Then she answered her own question by herself " TUMMY"....
Well , at least she get the answer right..

哎哟，看!

Few days ago when i was preparing Xinyi for afternoon nap, i accidently drop her water bottle and wet the bed sheet a bit. She immediately pointed to the drops of water and said " 哎哟，看!" while showing me her unhappy look on her face. I can't help but laughing out loud because this is exactly the way i talk to her whenver she play with her bottle water and wet the bed sheet.
Kids, they immitate whatever you are doing so make sure you don't do something silly infront of them. :)

Another 5 weeks

Another 5 weeks baby will due. This time, i'm not getting anxious at all. Not even a slightly excitement. However , i i still can't wait for the baby to come out. Tummy is getting too big for me to move around. Xinyi still required alot of hugging and carrying at this stage and this has become a burden for me. I always feel short of breath after carrying for just like 1 mins.
Only today, i start to wash all my sarong that i plan to wear during the confinement. I will probably wash the baby cloths tomorrow. Just incase baby decided to come out early.
And i haven't think of any name for baby.
I really have to start think of the baby. Not just Xinyi everytime. I just don't know how i can spare time for my baby, as i just spend all my energy and mind taking care Xinyi now.
Just wonder how the mothers of more than 1 taking care of her kids?

Regarding ps again

Here I am again, a worried mum, my DD doesn't poo for 4 days straight already. I think it has become a habit for her to poo only every 3 or 4 days. And everytime she poo, it involved straining, complaining, whinning, and even crying if the poo is too hard. The process sometimes can take up for more than half an hour to 1 hour before she succesfully push the poo out. And you can imagine how stressful both of us during the process. And most of the time, she will have the urge to poo for a few times in a day before she manage to poo.
I've been very hardworking on feeding her fruits , water. But my daughter just not the type that like to eat. I have to chase her around the house to make sure she finish her fruits or drink her water. I'm seriously getting very tired to do that everyday. No matter what, she just won't eat if i didn't force it into her mouth.
I know alot of mothers out there are probably facing the same issue, and it will be the phase that will be over soon. I hope, my girl's difficultly in pooing will be over soon, and she will start to enjoy her fruits more and drink more waters by her own. Or maybe i should potty train her so that she get use to poo everyday?
I'm not sending this post to the multiply inbox. This is more like my own writing to keep track, My own way of releasing my worried.

Rant

Stupid network!! Damn slow!! Stupid Streamyx!! Don't know why i pay so much every month for something slow like turtle. Upload video also take forever, few times then only succesfull. Load a page also take few minutes. GERAM!!!!!

I'm waiting fo her to ps.

Do you consistently checking your kid's poo? tracking when he/she poo? whether the poo is hard of soft? Ya, call me the weird one. I'm one of those weird mother that's always concern about my daughter bowel movement. I start to worry when daughter skip a day without poo, counting how many days she didn't have her bowel movement, waiting everytime when she wakes up hopefully she will poo the next minutes. If there is still no sign of pooing of her, i will feel like i can't sit, can't eat , can't stand, immediately complain to my husband when he gets home that our daughter still not pooing today.
I wonder whether all mothers are the same. Or maybe i'm that super duper weird mother that's overly concerned and worried.

note: ps = pang sai (in hokkien).

I want to wash my clothes

This is Xinyi trying to load her dirty clothes in the washing machine. But since the washing machine is fully loaded and running, maybe she thought putting the clothes at the side also the same?









mama, I'm done loading the clothes, can i start to wash now?

I can't wait

While waiting for the rice to be ready (a few more minutes shown on the rice cooker), Xinyi decided that she can't wait any longer and need to eat now. She climbed on the chair and started to feed herself with the dishes on the dining table. I find her action cute so I snap a picture of her.

This is her "tam jiak" (hokkien) look. Need to keep this and show it to her when she grow up next time.

Me and my dog

Xinyi love her toy dog so much that she almost carry the dog everywhere she goes.

This is my dog. When she naughty , i twist her ear.


I write with my dog


I play piano with my dog


I ride with my dog


I play ball without letting go my dog


I even climb together with my dog


Dog dog, you come down for a while first


So that i can direct the music for you ya.


Most of the time, i carry my dog like this


But sometimes i do carry her like this


Last but not least, need to take a " sui sui" photo with my beloved dog eh

The best thing to do in the hot day

The best thing to do in this very hot day.

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To have a cool rinse in the sink....

Gong Xi Fatt Cai

祝福~~ 新的一年，大家都長智慧、平安、幸福快樂~~ ^^

獻給大家連環及滿滿的提醒

記得早上起床照鏡子時跟自己打聲招呼	記得每天保持 高昂的心情	記得要時常鼓勵 自己	記得遇到難過的事就不要壓抑自己
記得偶爾要讓自己 大叫發洩	記得每天出門時要 面帶笑容	記得留點時間給自己不要太匆忙	記得對有些事要學習一笑視之
記得對不確定的事物抱持疑問	記得對看不慣的事要有隱忍心態	記得對他人的窘態要有同理心	記得遇到高興的事就是要大笑
記得有時候要學會 裝可愛	記得生氣時要會學會克制怒火	記得偶爾時要放縱 自己的任性	記得最好是要有 心靈寄託
記得有時無語是 最好的回答	記得偶爾可以吃虧但不要受冤枉	記得對自己的家人也要說謝謝

最後~~~~還有一個最~~最~~ 最重要的就是……

記得時間到了就是 要下班

^^ 祝大家新年快樂喔 ~

ESPRIT

I didn't realized ESPRIT produce playpen until i saw this. Not sure whether it's really from ESPRIT. :)
With ESPRIT normal t-shirst cost RM200+. This playpen seems quite cheap , isn't it?

LIfe is full of choices, what decision you will made?

This happens to a relative

Just imagine yourself is 6 months pregnant. Suddenly you detect the lump underneath your armpit and was diagnosed with breast cancer, 2nd stage. Went to two different doctors and they gave you the different option to choose

From the first doctor : Removed the lump and breast now, the rest until you are 34 weeks pregnant and have the c-sec to deliver the baby. Then only do the chemo.

From the second doctor: When you are pregnant, the hormone and blood cell change very fast. To protect yourself, have a surgery to remove the lump, the breast and do the abortion at the same time. So that you can start to the chemo immediately.

I just wonder, if you were her, which option will you choose? To remove a 6 months old fetus and save yourself? Or to wait for another two months so that you can deliver the baby and only do the chemo after that.

Xinyi favourite corner

Xinyi love to sit at this corner recently. Her little body just fit nicely into the tiny place (gap between the staircase and my always sitting there collecting dust exercise bike).

Love this second pic. See how she looks at the camera...hahaha..

CNY is around the corner

I didn't realize that the chinese new year is just 2 weeks away until my neigbour started to hang the cny decoration yesterday.

Maybe it's time to start the spring cleaning of the house. But we don't have alot of visitors to our house during cny so i doubt that we need to do anything extra other than our normal cleaning of the house?
Anyway, wishing all my family and friends a Happy Chinese New Year. The wishing may come too early, but better early than late , right? :)

She kiss me

I was preparing Xinyi for her afternoon nap, both of us lying on the mattress while me singing the nursery song to her and she just humming along. Suddenly, she sit up, look at me and trying to align her face to my face. I was wondering what is she trying to do and out of sudden, she gave me a kiss, with a big "muakkksss" sound on my lip. Then she just look at me and smile. My heart melted. I asked Xinyi to give me a kiss again and yes, she did it again and again.
Even thought she haven't called me mama yet, this is definitely the way she is telling me: mama, I love you..

IN macau airport now

currently waiting for my flight back to KL at Macau international airport. So tired after spending a few days in HK　ａｎｄ　Ｍａｃａｕ．　Ｏｏｐｓ．　ｔｉｍｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｂｏａｒｄｉｎｇ．　Ｃｉａｏ．．

So piss off

I've been calling a HK travel agent hotline for a few times with skype and all i get is " All our customers service respresentative are busy right now, pls hold the line". I get this message repeated for every few seconds and at the end i get " All our customer service representatives are really busy, pls call back later" .. after waiting for like 5 mins? At few times, it did get to the representative, but the representative is so impatient, wait for 1 seconds without hearing my voice , she just hang up. Bare in mind i'm calling with skype so it will be a bit lagging for them to hear me mar.
Arhhhh.. So geram....

I'm so happy i won

I'm not winning a big prize like 42" TV or Sony VIAO laptop. I hope i can win those some day. LOL.
I won a small game that held by a Malaysia cloth diaper online store. It's a photo contest that we just need to submit a photo of the cloth diapers on the cloth line. The winner of the best photo will get a " All day wetbag" that cost RM68.
This is the photo that i submit. Really like the sky as it's so blueeeeeeee.

Eventhough the prize didn't cost alot. But it really make my day. I'm so happy ler.