Dream

I had a weird dream the other day. It has been a looooonnnnnnngggggg time i didn't have any dream so it's really funny. I can't really remember the actual content of the dream but what i do remember is that i'm still single and got a crash on someone that i don't know. hahaha. i can't remember that "someone" face right now. Strange ar, maybe deep down in my heart i do wish to be single again. That i will have a choice again for my life. Will i still choose to get married and have kid ? ummm. i'm not too sure about that myself.
If you ask me whether i'm happy after i have xinyi. I am, but not 100%. I know alot of people out there that feel so proud of being a mother and for them, they are 100% happy with the new baby. For me , i feel that my life is miserable after i have baby. I can't do all the stuff that i enjoy doing when i'm still single, or at least when without baby. I have less less less sleep a day which sometimes drive me crazy. But i do love her, with all my heart. I want to give the best thing to her. I want her to be healthy and happy. Doesn't really matter whether she is smarter or a bit dump. (p/s: of course i don't want her to be dump. that is not consider healthy if she is dump, right? ) :)

Sick again!!

Haiiii, xinyi is sick again this few days. Same old problem, running nose, slight cough and the worse. RASHES. She got rashes again all over her face, body, hands and legs. What have i done wrong? I thought i'm a good mother that take good care of my daughter. Why is she keep on sick, getting rashes over and over again. It's really pity seeing her keep on scatching herself because of the itchiness from the rashes. And it's really sad seeing all the red spot on her body. As a mother, what can i do? I've been bring her to see two ped but none of them can really point out what's wrong. except one keep on telling me to switch to soya milk and another one just keep on asking me to control my diet. I'm almost going crazy. Pls help !!